Loner but not a stoner

I am hoping that being a loner will bring peace to myself and others. The thing is that i don't want to be the topic of everybody discussion. Plus I want to get my life on the right path. As of right now i feel like a failure to my father,and a awful best friend to my best friend. Plus I want to make my family proud. So with that said I don't want to live off somebodies dream. I want to live my own life and dream.